Hotwheels

Here's a fun memory.  Years ago, I used to play with Hotwheel cars (and only hotwheels cars) I was very particular about my diecast cars, and brands like matchbox, and others from China simply weren't as good as the quality of hotwheels. Most Hotwheels had finer details, better looking wheels, and were made of a lot of metal instead of plastic. They just felt better in your hand and rolled better.

Anyway, I got a special Hotwheel one time with a Hotwheel card puzzle. The card puzzle had 9 square cards which you were suppose to make into a 3x3 square. On each side of the square there was either the front or rear of 1 of 4 cars drawn.  The object was to make a perfect 3x3 square in which all the cars were the right type, direction, front and rear end, in matching up from one card to the next.  I never could figure out the puzzle.

Regardless, with the puzzle came a really cool red LeMans type car.  It was rare wheels and a rear hood that would pop open and you could see the engine beneath. The chassis and the body were both metal and it was one of my favorite cars.

One day I accidently dropped and chipped the paint right on the nose of the LeMans car.  It was hideous and ruined the perfection of the car (I kept my cars in a cubby and none of them had scatches) I was so upset and mad at myself for ruining the car, I took a hammer and demolished the car because I had already robbed it of it's perfection. Afterwards I cried and was even more furious at myself for dropping the car and for then destroying it.

I sometimes go to my parent's house and when I'm bored look at my old toys in my closet and take a peek at my car collection.  I will look for the red LeMans car that I remmeber playing with so well, but then I recall destroying it.

I can see clearly now how my life is like that red LeMans car and how I haven't changed a bit since childhood.  I am left wondering what happened and how I could destroy something I used to love.

Ruined.